my midwife said to me last week 'it feels like your pregnancy is taking forever' and feeling and being sick and ill constantly since the summer, it has felt f-o-r-e-v-e-r ... but I also feel like I have needed this time to get my head around being pregnant!
you would think that when you have longed all your life for something, to have it happen you would be ready for it ... and in some ways I was, it has felt very natural and right, the timing has been perfect and I am happier than I have ever been in my life before ... but it sinking in is another thing!
we had been trying for a baby for about 6 months, but about 6 weeks before the wedding I decided to stop stressing about it as I needed to concentrate on the wedding ... and so then of course it happened ... we found out the week of the wedding that I was pregnant ... it did make the wedding a bit of a dream, all I could think was 'I'm pregnant!' and that lasted for a while ... the week after the wedding the sickness started so that only added to the 'I'm definitely pregnant!' but it was still not really real!
then something happened in our family and the fragileness of pregnancy hit home ... although I was determined not to worry, I couldn't help it ... after all why should I be lucky enough to have this baby ... it was all too good to be true ... things like that never happened to me ... I was the girl that was always alone and had to watch other people have miracles in their lives ... it wouldn't really be my turn would it?
but I made it to 12 weeks and we went for the scan ... it was all good ... moving around, hiccuping and everything was ok ... I started to relax and wanted to enjoy the pregnancy. Although my bump and boobs were growing and I could see my body was changing it still felt unreal ... the baby didn't seem real and I must admit that the scan picture slightly freaked me out ... it was lovely and clear but looked like a tiny skeleton in me and not how my little baby should look!
the next 2 months were long ... I was coughing and coughing and being sick and not sleeping, and keeping Steve up with my coughing. One down side of pregnancy is you can't take much medication especially cough mixture. I did have one lot of antibiotics but they didn't touch it and the doctor didn't want to give me more ... looking back now, it seems like I was in a daze. Everyone kept saying 'its good practice for when the baby comes and you will have no sleep' but surely we should be trying to get as much sleep now as possible seeing as we probably wont be having much for the next few years?????
I think my 20 week scan was one of the best days of my life ... I didn't think I was worried, but the relief I felt afterward shows I must have been. We found out what it was and suddenly our baby was real ... I felt connected ... I could picture it ... having a cute scan picture helped too ... it was a baby not a weird little thing ... and there was hair on its head and a little turned up nose ... it was moving around too and I could feel it!
that feeling has only grown stronger and as I enter my third trimester the bond I feel with my bump is how I used to think pregnancy should be ... I love it when I'm awake in the night and can feel movement inside me ... this little baby has made my life complete and I still can't believe that I have been blessed this much.
so yes, in some ways my midwife is right, this pregnancy has felt forever ... and I still have 3 months to go and I can't wait for it to be here and hold it in my arms, but I think I needed a few months to let it sink in and be real. I am still coughing and keeping Steve awake but not being sick so much so am feeling a bit better and now I can start getting ready for the Spring, when my life really will change and never be the same again!
I would like to say I haven't blogged for a while because I have been having a crazy-wild time, but the truth is that this pregnancy has taken any of the little spare energy I have and I still have this cough that I have now had for 14 weeks so I have been snuggled away at home.
We had a lovely Christmas, saw family and had a friend and her family stay for new year. Amazingly the Christmas tree survived even with a 1 year old wolf in the house! ... not only survived, but wasn't even touched! The first night it was up we were listening out for a huge crash (the dogs sleep next to it) but we went in in the morning and it was still all perfect :)
I decorated the cake pretty much the same as last year, only this year I made a square cake ...
2014 was the most wonderful year of my life and 2015 promises to be even better with a spring baby and new chapter of my life beginning ... I still can't really believe that I am pregnant and living in the sweetest home with the most lovely husband a girl could have ... it just shows dreams do come true!
I only really have one new years resolution ... I have basically been being sick since our wedding in the summer ... first it was morning (or should that be all the time) sickness, then this cough I have had has been making me throw up ... so cooking and making nice meals has been the last thing I have felt like doing ... poor Steve ... so I want to start making nice meals and trying new things again, not doing the easiest/quickest thing I could get away with!
This Spring my project is the baby's room ... it will be sleeping in with us obviously, but our room is not very big, so the spare room is for the baby and my plan is to have a woodland room ... I will share some of my ideas and inspirations with you later, but I am so excited about getting it all together and making stuff for it :)
Then once that room is done I need to get cracking on Dora-the-caravan ... She is in place and pretty much gutted but needs painting both inside and out. Steve's dad has started on a work bench in there for me, but he got the flu before Christmas, so its not really finished.
I hope January hasn't been too cold and wet and windy for you all ... its been pretty crazy here ... and today its snowed!!
We had a lovely Christmas, saw family and had a friend and her family stay for new year. Amazingly the Christmas tree survived even with a 1 year old wolf in the house! ... not only survived, but wasn't even touched! The first night it was up we were listening out for a huge crash (the dogs sleep next to it) but we went in in the morning and it was still all perfect :)
I decorated the cake pretty much the same as last year, only this year I made a square cake ...
2014 was the most wonderful year of my life and 2015 promises to be even better with a spring baby and new chapter of my life beginning ... I still can't really believe that I am pregnant and living in the sweetest home with the most lovely husband a girl could have ... it just shows dreams do come true!
I only really have one new years resolution ... I have basically been being sick since our wedding in the summer ... first it was morning (or should that be all the time) sickness, then this cough I have had has been making me throw up ... so cooking and making nice meals has been the last thing I have felt like doing ... poor Steve ... so I want to start making nice meals and trying new things again, not doing the easiest/quickest thing I could get away with!
This Spring my project is the baby's room ... it will be sleeping in with us obviously, but our room is not very big, so the spare room is for the baby and my plan is to have a woodland room ... I will share some of my ideas and inspirations with you later, but I am so excited about getting it all together and making stuff for it :)
Then once that room is done I need to get cracking on Dora-the-caravan ... She is in place and pretty much gutted but needs painting both inside and out. Steve's dad has started on a work bench in there for me, but he got the flu before Christmas, so its not really finished.
I hope January hasn't been too cold and wet and windy for you all ... its been pretty crazy here ... and today its snowed!!
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I am an English girl married to a lovely Welsh man with a couple of little wild boys. We live in a cosy log cabin high up in the Welsh hills with or gentle wolf, crazy puppy and a wild cat that lives in the wood pile!
I love all crafts, reading, dreaming, selling pretty things and cups of tea. I am trying to live a more healthy, holistic and green life.
I love all crafts, reading, dreaming, selling pretty things and cups of tea. I am trying to live a more healthy, holistic and green life.
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